“I am inadequate.”
That phrase. It’s a phrase that hurts… Hurts to say… Hurts to feel… Hurts to believe. And, as much as it hurts, I tell myself that everyday, multiple times a day. Yes, I just admitted that. It’s a phrase that I have made myself not only hear but believe. To an extent, it’s true. But to me, it’s more than true. It’s true because without God that’s exactly what I am. It’s more than true because I have let myself believe that’s all I am.
Most days and most moments I cannot see past my inadequacy. It’s literally crippling. There are times where I can’t seem to get anything done that I know I need to get done because of this feeling of inadequacy. I hate it. It hurts to admit it, but it has to be done.
There’s a song by Lauren Daigle that says, “I’ve been hiding, afraid I’ve let you down.” That. That depicts the feeling of inadequacy. When I feel inadequate, I hide. I hide who I truly am. I hide what God’s love has truly done for me.
In that same song, it says: “You say that I am free. You plead my cause. You right my wrongs. You break my chains. You overcome.” That. That’s what God’s love has done for me and continues to do for me. This life is hard, and there will be times that I continue to feel inadequate. Because alone, I am. But with God, I’m not. I am enough.
When I first started writing this, the title was: “I am inadequate.” As you may see that has changed.
“I am enough.”
I am enough because God says I am free. I am enough because He pleads my cause. I am enough because He rights my wrongs. I am enough because He breaks my chains. I am enough because He overcame. He overcame death for me. I am enough because He is enough.